It's okay, it happens.

Do you have a guilty feeling about something that haunts you more than anything in your own world? Then let me rephrase it again. 

Are you afraid that your guilt destroyed your own world?

Yes, most of us still suffer from feeling guilty without knowing the purpose of it and I was one of them I was struggling so bad that I had all other things too like depression, anxiety, sadness, grief, and anger, but couldn't find an answer for it, of course, it was tough at the beginning not knowing about this kind of things but now I just get used to it and I don't worry about it. It is a common thing in this generation. I came to know it when I started using social media, then I came to know that many out there are suffering the same as me and all,  I want to tell you one thing. That is, don't worry, it is okay, it happens.

 If you come to circumstances where you have to push yourself to the unreal side of yourself. Or being the person you don't want to be, or overthinking too much out of the blue, worrying about your past, or maybe you find yourself crying for silly reasons, and you feel that it isn't you, and you feel bad about yourself.  If it's okay, it happens. Some things aren't always perfect. Imperfection is the new beauty for this generation, and don't take it seriously if your parents get to talk about their past, their work, their living style. It was totally different than ours, and the things that are now are totally different, and you don't have to worry about. If you want to change yourself, you can, but remember not for the things that attract you or you think will be cool if you had them. If you are not cool, it's okay. 

 I am telling you because you might end up suffering from the same problem again, and it's an unwanted thing. Just discover yourself and follow your passion. If you think you are not creative or an expert in your passion, then consult with someone who makes you feel safe to explore or just casually have a talk. For me it was too hard to open because no one could ever understand my feelings even my loved ones were not effective and still I can't talk to anyone about anything even if I try dangerous things I had that feeling that nothing was helpful I thought it was all over. and I did try and when I thought that I changed and it was over but it wasn't over like that it just took leave I guess and it took me over again I was same like I was before, it was so suffocated. Feeling as if I was stuck in a forbidden room with nothing just the negatives of my past, present, and future. 

But the guilt that haunted me for years was that 'YOU ARE FIT FOR NOTHING' or 'I AM ASHAMED BECAUSE OF HAVING YOU WITH ME' Those lines literally affected me and more negatives which I can't mention here because they are verbally abusive and that is why it got me haunted for years and years, in the end, I had no solutions but lots of questions. But you can heal from it. When you try to think that you can heal. Nothing in this world is permanent, not even sadness or happiness. Just try to live without overthinking and overdoing everything. Relax and live at ease. What is meant for you will come to you and change your life. Be ready to accept it. When it comes to searching for you.